my life...is wonderful. Not really, but i'm hanging in there.

Justin and I are...i have no idea. I guess...friends. Justin + friends = bad idea. Idk...time will tell

I worked wen and thursday...chilled with some people after work both days. It...was heart-wrenching. Lol...

got an odd call from someone last nite at about 1:30. Kym was pissed cause she ahd to be up early for work the next day...and I'd already woken her up once at 12:30 when I came inside finally.

today I jus chilled at Kyms all morning and read. Did some thinking. Alot of thinkin' actually.

It got me no where. I'm still stuck.

I've heard some shit about Justin I didn't like...

I want things to work...but I dunno.

I hurt all over. My heart, my stomach, my head...everything. I feel so sick lately. I eat and the food doesnt even taste right. I think I got some kinda virus or something. I dunno, I think Im going to make a dr's appointment if I dont feel better soon.

Work has been fun. I really enjoy working at McDonalds so far.

a certain guy said the nicest thing to me yesterday. I'm like..."shouldnt you be working" cause he was jus standing there...and hes like, "I'd rather stare at you all day..." aww...lol it was funny.

I jus don't know what to say anymore.

I don't know anything. It's like...this big, jumbled mess. I wish Justin and I could jus sit down and talk everything out. Mann, I've fucked up so many times. But who knows, maybe it's for the better in the future.

I dont know...

Im sorry...to everyone I've ever hurt or fucked over or made angry...I'm jus so sorry...everyone.

and I'm so glad to be alive...

i know you hate sympathy
but i am sorry about you and justin, and trust me, i do know how you feel. i don't know your views on God, but things don't happen unless they will make things better. i know it might not seem things will be better, but they will be =)
» chells420 on 2005-07-23 10:02:13

Whats up
Hey this not really about what ive read tonight ..... i think your grate and hope u work this out in your life.... and im sorry about tonight its just i care 4 you and dont wana see u get hirt again makes me sad when my frined are sad them self :( But lissen up you!.... Be Happpy:)
» Andy (64.185.136.6) on 2005-07-23 11:15:15

aww
thanks guys, I'll be fine tho...I always am. =)
» Manda103 on 2005-07-24 10:12:47

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